Yes, we are all still alive...

So I haven't felt up to blogging lately...or more that it's just been painful for me...I guess that i was just hoping that this phase of my life would pass QUICKLY...but that doesn't seem to be happening....
The girls and I are living here at my mothers house. Wasn't a good situation when i was younger and it's an even worse situation now...my mother is an alcoholic. It sucks. You'd think that with your granddaughters living with you in your home, you'd want to rock the grama thing, but well, that hasn't happened...she's barely functioning as a human....again, it sucks.
BUT there is a light at the end of the tunnel...we're moving out soon...how soon? well, i'm not exactly sure, but well...soon. Hopefully no longer than 3 wks, but we'll see...it's all just up to how long the people take fixing up the apt so we can move in. PRAY that it is BEFORE July 15th PLEASE, a LOT of my friends are going camping and i need their help to move, BIG TIME. For this move I will NOT be asking N to help me move...i want to do this "myself"!
OH! and duh, how did you get an apt when you don't have a job?! lol...i HAVE a job now!!! Well, kinda. It kinda came out of the blue and well i can't argue...I clean houses tues/wed/sometime saturday and i actually kinda like it, and it kinda pays decent! woo hooo!
Hmm...what else...I've taken up a bit of knitting thanks to my lovely dutch girlfriends...I now have 3 dishcloths made for the new place...now if only i can remember the dutch word for them...shoot.

And i think that i have run out of things to say at the moment, that, and my laptop is slightly overheating on my lap here and well my thighs feel like they're on fire and (lol) NOT in a good way!!! rofl.

so 'nightie night all.

blog is kinda on hold

so life is getting crazy...moving is VERY close on the horizon...just finishing up at moms house(well enough that we can at least move in! but it'll certainly be more cleaning/organizing after we get there)...
And i just need to get off the computer and focus on my girls and myself. I need to make us happy....and that is all for now...

Kids 1st Day!

isn't EVERYDAY kids 1st day?! it sure seems like it sometimes! lol.
But today was infact "kids 1st day" here. Where many businesses open up and have fun activities for families to do for FREE! (i love that word! lol).
Here is what we did...
9:40~ made pinwheels at chapters
10:15am~ made jewellery trees at Rona
11am~did an educational scavenger hunt at the archaeology museum, and then made mini clay pots.
noon~decorated chef hats and cupcakes at Loblaws(yum!)
12:45~painted trees at scholars choice
1:15~ got cool aprons and woodworking craft at HomeDepot(were tired and needing lunch so just got them and left)

Next we decided to be bad and grab some lunch at McD's and play at the playplace, but as we sat down to lunch i got a textmessage from a friend that they were at the park and come join them...so we ate quick and drove across the city to the park.
There we had a blast flying kites, climbing trees, playing on the equipment, snacking, etc with friends and a TROOP of kids! lol
We finally got home about 4:30 EXHAUSTED!!!
Now i need to get off my bum and make dinner...wahhhh!!! no fair!!!
(oh and a quick document about the GORGEOUS weather today~~~23 degrees and mainly SUNNY! wowza!) EDITED to add that when i went to grab pizza for dinner tonight at 6 it was crazy sunny and 28 degrees! and now at 11pm it's still 24 degrees and WARM!!! *sigh*

Moving...ugh.

So with separation comes MOVING...we weren't too concerned about us moving out that quickly because we knew that it was important to keep H at the same school till the year was out....but things have changed.
N was here this week to start taking measurements and get working on fixing up the house(because we need to sell ASAP)..well, we thought the girls would be ok with N stopping by here and there...WRONG...couldn't be more wrong at all! A had an ABSOLUTE MELTDOWN, it broke my heart so badly and made me cry...she couldn't figure out why mommy couldn't make daddy come back, because i'm magic...(don't ask, she just believes that mommies are magic)...it was the saddest thing ever...
SO because of this, and because of watching what a friend had to go through trying to sell her house over the past month, i've realised that this is not something that i am willing to put my family through, so we're outtie...in approx 2 weeks. YIKES.

My mom doesn't get back from her vacation until LATE LATE tomorrow night or sometime Monday, and then well I will be FREAKING OUT for the next little while until this move is complete. There is literally SOOOO much to do and soooo little time.

Please please pray for us.

Easter Eggs!!

Ok, let me explain....i kinda let easter creep up on me....this separation has thrown me for a loop....so NORMALLY we do the hardboiled eggs and then use the decorating kits and dip them and whatever...

This year, we managed to find a 7-11 that had eggs, we left them raw, I just grabbed as much craft crap as i could find and let them go nuts!! I think they turned out pretty awesome! (except i am still questioning the R.I.P eggy jr one and the red/gold ones that are "fire"?! (i'm wondering what goes on in the head of my 8 yr old?! lol)

(top eggs are Ally(4) eggs, and bottom are Hayley(8) eggs)

Easter is coming!

Ok, I will try desperately not to make this entry all doom and gloom! But it seems to follow me wherever i go! eek.

So this weekend is easter weekend...i am trying so hard to just figure it all out...generally i would plan it out myself anyways, but with N gone i am now FORCED to figure it out on my own, and well i don't like to be forced to do anything! lol.
Friday is a school holiday, so it will be nice to relax(i hope) and just spent some time with the girls, maybe we'll decorate for easter, put up the easter tree and make some resurrection buns! ...N is taking them for dinner on fri night...Saturday i think we just have regular stuff going on...N takes them to bowling and they spend the day together, I think we'll decorate some eggs when they come home...and then Sunday is Easter, N will come over and we'll watch the girls hunt their chocolates and then girls and i are off to church...i think that night I'm going to book a hotel and that way we can just relax and play in a pool...but who knows...we'll see....I'm not too sure yet if the friday night dinner is easter dinner with his family or just a dinner...and well my family is leaving me and going on vacation thursday for 10 days so it'll basically be just me and the girls.

I'm feeling heavy hearted

Tomorrow, March 26th, is my grama's birthday. This is the first one since her passing last june...
I miss her so much and wish she was still here to talk to, she was such a good person.